Once is enough to make me attack

Some day i'll understand the reality of my living
And from that day on
me and myself
can hold hands
walk alike
Now
the only reality i know is this

Money rules my life
Need rules my money
Instinct rules my need
emotions rules my instinct
what rules my emotion?

I'm in constant numbness
in another hand
I feel with a full heart
I scream with full lungs

burning
I'm burning
with the freezing coldness of my rational thinking
there is no healing for 3º degree burns
can you see me?